I know that life holds no guarantees. I completely understand that (in the logical side of my brain), but I really wish that there were some sort of sign, some sort of assurance that everything is going to be OK, that I'm not going to regret leaving the classroom and my career, and the money, behind.
I'm starting to have a bit of a panic attack every time I think about homeschooling. It's not so much the curriculum that is getting me worked up (using my experience as a classroom teacher, finding resources and planning is second nature to me now)...it's more like...the unknown aspect of it. How am I going to know that I'm doing it right? How will I not lose my mind or go stir crazy, or not have The Monk go stir crazy? What about money (for bills, for supplies, resources, or even more importantly, quilting!)? I've never been a SAHM, never really not had a professional career. I mean, I've worked since I was 13 (at least every summer until college, then I worked FT and went to school FT). How do I keep myself busy? Do I really want to spend the day working on elementary skills AND cleaning the house AND cooking? Do I really want to give up the life to which I have grown accustomed to (you know, like having money and getting out of the house and having a job)? I know, in the logical side of my brain, that I have already pulled the trigger (I'm so playing Rhianna's Russian Roulette in my head right now) on letting my professional teaching career go, but I still have these waves of panic where I can't help but freak b/c there is so much that is unknown. How do I keep all of that from taking away what I'm sure will be an enriching and wonderful experience, both for myself and my son? There is a method to our madness in deciding to homeschool (otherwise, The Hubs would never have let me quit my job), but as the reality of it gets closer and closer, I can't help but feel nervous and uncertain. I don't want our lives to be a struggle or to be made more difficult. We are trying hard to make life more simple.
I know that life holds no guarantees. I completely understand that (in the logical side of my brain), but I really wish that there were some sort of sign, some sort of assurance that everything is going to be OK, that I'm not going to regret leaving the classroom and my career, and the money, behind.
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How it all started...I was a public school teacher for 6 years in a very urban middle school for both 7th and 8th grade. As the red-tape got thicker and teaching became more of a business rather than a place to prepare young minds to enter into the world, I decided that if I was going to work that hard to give an education to someone, it should be my own son. So, my adventures in homeschooling has begun. Follow us on Instagram!
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